还是一样//

累了/

做对了吗/

继续吗/

还是一个人了//

Surprise Valetine

He truly shocked me.
I never expect he will appear at my work place with presents.
Well, I kinda thought of that, but it was 50-50 chance that either he going to surprise me,
OR
I'll let myself down for having expectation on that.

It was raining and was about 18°C.
He walked for 3omins from bus stop to drop me the presents,
and walk for another 30mins to get back to the bus stop.

Well, I was kinda laughed by my colleagues.
But I know they were just jealous..
HAHAHA :P

Well... I don't know how to express my feeling into words.

So.. I guess... "I love you too" is what I want to say :)




Happy Valentine's Day

元宵节要吃记得吃元宵哦

什么意思？
阿其实我也不知道。
一个中国人跟我讲的。

还有30分钟不到就过完年了。
和甘甘吃皮萨的过了一个没有捞生没有月亮的元宵节。

哈快。

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没什么想说的，
只觉得跟有些人讲话单单打打的真的好累。
就一直硬硬要赢的那种人。

好累。

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天气转凉了。
由上星期平均40多度的掉到20多度，
从上星期一至六都艳阳高照的变到这星期一至六都下雨。

真好。


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租了7片迪斯尼卡通。
有新的，有旧的。
其实很想看阿拉丁但是找没有。

再找。


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回来吧。























Pure heart。

So she says

So she told me she's like a Sunday-girlfriend.
He can disappear and leave her with no news for the whole week, but turn out on every Sunday as if nothing was wrong.
His don't even notice she was angry because she was worried.
They argued why is he behave like this.
He refused what she is confronting.
She tired hearing the excuse he is giving.
She wanted to quit this - mind consuming game.





















Then, she heard,

"Is He your Sunday-God?"







Stoned.

Spring [春]

Time : 0308
Venue: Maze Backpacker
Status: Alone.


Nothing much happening, really.

Went for reunion dinner with the boss and colleagues. It was good. Really appreciate that at least he put up something for us and make us feel home.

Head to city after the dinner to meet Joseph. He has reunion dinner with his housemates and he got his very first angpao (!!). Aus10. I have none, yet.

Nothing much. Walk around the city. There's lion dance and fire crackers on the stress. I'm completely pumped. Finally there's something feel like CNY here.

Walked to China Town. Quiet. For sure, it's 130 in the morning. Called home. Talked to everyone. Miss them so much. Really want to go back for CNY next year.

Got a place to stay over. AUD65 a night. Single room. Don't feel like sharing with others in backpacker. Just don't feel safe since I've bring the laptop with me. Just thought it's cheaper to call home by using Skype. End up calling by mobile anyways.

Time to sleep. New year. New hope. Officially one year older. How about that.

Cheers.

我随便写的

说起来我真的超久没住过一顿正式的住家饭吼
我还以为放假了会有多些时间出来在家住住什么的
那里知道，都一直在吃餐厅拿回来的剩饭剩菜
嗯，我现在嘛，在吃寿司。
边吃边写 - 一个字 - 爽！

其实这家餐厅说是一家日本餐厅
但是里面是一个日本人都没有
韩国厨师倒是有一个，就负责做寿司的
热食的全部都是中国人
老板是香港人

有些顾客有的没的就跟你来一句日文
有时 还没回过神来还以为他跟我说哪国的话了
有些甚至会问一些看是很有学问但是让你留下3条黑线的问题
最无哩头的就非印度人莫属了
“阿请问你们这里有咖喱炒饭吗？”
哇勒~ 要吃咖喱去吃印度餐呗

说到吃的，不能不说这个故事了
事情发生在几个月前，话说我那天很想很想吃Nasi Lemak
我看准了那里有一间叫Enak的摊位想说啊这次有好吃的了
Enak耶！多么马来的一间店名阿，有没有
就在我要点餐的时候 - 真相让我崩溃了
我问那服务员说，阿你们的Nasi Lemak有些什么的
他说有炸鸡阿，青瓜阿，炒花生阿，蛋阿，Sambal阿.....
大家一定在想“哇~sambal都叫得出来，一定很正统的了”
错了错了错了！！！！！！！
他竟然在后面给我加了一句“STEAM RICE”
你没听错 --- 是 STEAM RICE！！！
妈啊哥啊姐啊~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
你到底知不知道Nasi Lemak 是什么意思阿你？！
顾名思义就是用Lemak煮的Nasi啊！！
你还给我Enak个屁吼！
用Steam Rice 你给我叫炸鸡辣椒饭就好啦
还给我Nasi Lemak咧你
生气啊！
结果还是跑去吃快餐去了
我干吗花那么多钱吃你那个没有椰浆的椰浆饭啊~ 不爽啊！

接下来我要说的这个跟吃的没关系
……阿也有少少啦……她家里开餐馆的（哈哈）
就和这个小学同班同学在MSN聊起说另外一个同学回家当CEO去了
后来看她的博她也提到说要回去当个幸福的CEO
其实有时候在外面闯累了
我也有想过如果回去明昌当CEO也不错的吼
再不然回去种菜也好的……听说割胶也很好赚的……
谁说简简单单平平凡凡就不快乐不伟大呢

只是有些路一旦走上了就不能回头了
只能硬着头皮死死给他走下去

最后一块寿司了

Blessed 09

It has been - officially - 6 months, I'm here in this kangaroo land.

2008 is a year filled with God's favor and blessing.
So many dreams has come to pass.
I'm overwhelm when come to counting God's blessing upon me throughout the year.

One of my dreams on is to watch the bridge fireworks
I still remember I blaming Leong Kam Kam on the last day of 2007 that WHEN will I have the chance.........

It's MASSIVE!! The most amazing fireworks I ever seen, so far.
Very impressive.

I haven't really set my goals for 2009.
But the very first I can think of now is -

To find confident in things that I think should and right to do.
Especially when come to decision making and speak up for opinions.
There has been ages I felt uncomfortable when there's a need a speak up and end up gulp the words all back in. Maybe I should first feel I AM confident, after all :)

Well, will sit down and really think what's the goals I'm want to achieve on 2009 and post it up - as a reminder for myself.

年~~ 又过完~~~

每到年尾心情就会忐忑不安
因为 - 怕

怕老 （嘿嘿）
怕又“这样”的又过了一年

最近都很拖得很迟才舍得睡
时间过得真的太快了
一眨眼又说来到年尾了
为什么人长大了就觉得时间过得特别快呢

那天翻了翻去年所写下的一些纸条

17.10.07
明年这个时候我会在悉尼了吗？

旁边还画了一个像鲨鱼背多过像大剧院的图案

的的确确
今年的这个时候我真的在悉尼了
也总算我在2008实现了一个梦想

其实看回以前自己所写的那些纸条感触还蛮多的
那些曾经担忧过的，曾经怀疑过的，曾经流过泪的， 曾经看起来没可能的 -
竟然都在不知不觉中成了现实

真傻
我还担心什么呢！

你，听懂了吗？

就你那一句

喂～ Kurumi
這街道的景色在你的眼中是什麼模樣呢？
現在的我看起來又是怎樣？
喂～ Kurumi
若是旁人的關心也讓你聽起來像挖苦似的
那個時候又該怎麼做才好呢？

總是乞望想擁有比眼前更多
為了追求那不變的愛而高歌
於是齒輪不停轉動
超過必要的負擔 讓齒輪一面發出嘎吱的聲響
伴隨希望的衍生而增加的失望
即使如此明天的內心依舊悸動
「究竟會發生什麼事呢？」
試著去想像看看吧
伴隨邂逅的次數而增加的別離
即使如此內心仍因希望而跳動
現在已經不能夠回頭了啊
向前走吧 踏上沒有你的這條路

静

今天莉莉也走了
这个月内都不懂送走多少人了
走了也不懂什么时候可以再见面的
好伤感啊~

我总觉得有走的那个其实没有年那么难受
反而那些要留下来的会被回忆吞噬

对不起
我现在知道当时离开你们原来是那么残忍的一件事了
哈！哈！

一个人的下午
好静

E-M-O

Have you ever wake up with weird feeling?
Like, weird.
As if there's something bad going to happen OR no reason but feel like crying anyway.
I hate those feeling and i know i'll need to deal with it.
I can't let my feeling take control of me for the rest of the day.
It's mentally exhausting.
Maybe i shouldn't have stay up so late.
It may help if i get back to a NORMAL sleeping habit.

It's so easy to get pessimistic especially when you are all alone.

Look up.
He's right there, smile at you.


God just drop to say HELLO to YOU
-who He loved so much-

November in a glance

It's hard to believe it's already end of November! And indeed, this is the most exciting month since I'm ever here in Australia.

*******

28th Nov - House/ Bondi

Just had my very first thanksgiving dinner with the girls. It was amazing! We talked about lotsa stuff - from what we've had changed since we are here to what are we going to be like in 5 years to when last God is spoken to you, etc. It was absolutely profound moments and I enjoyed the "family-time" a lot.

Went to Bondi beach with asian friends this morning. We climb the cliff and took lots of pictures like the crazy tourists =P We don't get to go to the beach though cos it was raining..no, it's puoring!! Thank God I brought my little red umbrella - where i was been claimed not-a-women-of-faith earlier by bringing it - But anyhow I'm glad I did, at least I don't get soaked like others does.

I've learned something today - We have been taught to listen to the right voice, but somehow I find it hard especially when people around you are speaking the bad's. But it's totally depends on how you going to react and say no to the negative voice from others.

27th Nov - Sydney Convention Center

It's grad dinner （well，i'm not graduating, yet :P) So, we got to dress up and have a little prom night. It was so much fun. The food was so damn good! ..although there's something went wrong with our table that the main course start super duber late - when everybody is about to have their dessert and some of us still waiting for the main course - that's how bad it is! Anyway, besides that, it's all good. We have a little dance session, what I can say is just I had so much fun. And we took lotsa pictures, some of them are graduating and leaving Australia for good. Geez, i just can't believe how fast time travels! The most regretful thing of the night is ------------ I didn't get to take pictures with ps.Brian and Bobbie Houston & Rueben Morgan!!!!! I thought I gonna to have chance to take with them some other time since I'm not leaving Australis yet - but I just realise how stupid I was to not taking pictures with them - cos yesterday night would be the golden opportunity to take picture without feeling awkward at all (if compare seeing them in church, or conference, or backstage)!!

24th Nov - Kellyville

Starts my new job - cleaning the house!! Woohooo!!! How exciting is it - not..hehe.. but they pay is not bad - $50 for 4 hours cleaning. I suppose to be there before 10am and when I got to the bus stop, I just realised that the bus is actually coming at 10:05am ==" I'm going to be so late! Then I decided to walk 30mins to another bus stop which I know there will be have more bus going to that place. I got into the bus by 9:40 - praise the Lord!! But I missed the stop and the bus take me to another place where I need to walk another 30mins to get to the house I about to clean. And I got attacked by a bird (yes, a BIRD) on the way walking to the house. Ahhhh~~~ How great is that! One word - Nice!

23th Nov - Home(sick)

It's my Uncle wedding in Indonesia. I'm so sad that I have to miss it :( I really wish I were there spending time with my family...sob sob.. kinda home sick lately.

20th Nov - Parteeeeey

Last day of tutorial. Oh well, it doesn't like a tutorial anymore, anyways.. we have had a party instead.. hahaha! We have the secret angels pressie exchange thingy going on. So we all bought a $5 gift to exchange with someone - and they have a rule that we are actually can steal other's gift of we don't like ours. There's a guy bought a $25 DVD - all wanted it! And finally I got it - it has been stole from many people and finally I got it...hahaha... Some of them must be hated me. But who cares, somebody gotto steal it anyways :P Well, The DVD comes with a book and I give it back to the guy who bought the gift.

19th Nov - Pancakes on the Rock

Housemates day out!! Woot Woot :P We went to this panceke house in Parramatta. We all dreassed up like we are having a semi-formal dinner. For real, this is our first time going out for dinner all together. I shared Pizza and Blackforest Pancakes with Sophie. It was so the very GOOD! esp the pancekes... yum!!

And then there's something "memorable" thing happened - Kristin forgot to turn off the car head light and the battery is flat that she couldn't start her engine. We - wearing heels - pushing the car to another end to get the battary from Katelyn's car. There's some guys come around and ask how's thing going and we totally think that they are going to help. But heck no! They just came and leave us - 8 girls - standing in a petrol station all by ourselves. How's that? Aussie guys just not helpful at all >.< class="blsp-spelling-error" id="SPELLING_ERROR_0">fbook, then you should have a good laugh in how we hilarious we were.

12th Nov - Lili & Katie's farewell

One word - FUN.. Ok, three words - FUN + GOOD FOOD :P It's like a asian gathering. They cooked phenomenal indonesia food and it was really yummy. After the dinner, we sang karaoke - with lili playing the piano. We choose those songs that has translated in many languages and sang in our own language - e.g. Shout to the Lord. I think we are shouting rather than singing though.. hahaha.. and the funniest thing is all those who gone crazy singing are all NONE vocal student! The vocal students are all sitting aside and watching us - pastoral, TV & children ministry students singing like cow! Well, what can I say, we just beat the vocal students.. hahaha ：P

2nd Nov - Darling Harbour

It's 25th Anniversary of Hillsong church and we have this humongous event going on at the Darling Harbour! They have a floating stage on the water and having a church service there - how COOL is that. You see thousands of people gather together worshipping God at the heart of the city. We praise and worship right besides the harbour. Man.. that was really phenomenal!!

*******

Alright, I think that is it for the moment. Oh well.. I wanted to put some pictures to show you guys - maybe I will add it beginning of Dec when the internet goes more faster downloading pictures.

PS: I'll be moving out to a nearer and cheaper room next week. Already felt missing the house I'm living in right now *sob sob*

中年狂躁症？！

今天外面风很大。
都快夏天了，可天气还是很不稳定。
时冷时热的， 我的心情也跟着上上下下。

这个月发生了很多事情 - 很多值得纪念和写下来的事情。
可能今晚放工了就要从11月2 号 开始写了……哈哈哈

有时候，我真的很想家。
有时候，我还是会怀疑我到底有没有做错了决定。
有时候，我还是会忍不住地比较。
有时候，我很想就这样放弃了。
有时候，我还是觉得平平凡凡的不是也很好吗。

嗯……难道这就是要步入中年的预兆？！？！
*这个时候，电脑里传来了赞美之泉 的 ‘常常喜乐’这首歌……汗~*
PS: 我还是很常听中文歌的，真的。

我相信的， 你相信吗？
*这个时候，换了歌‘专心仰望耶稣’……汗汗~*


GO GO, 去工作了噢~

悟

有些事情 封尘了 还是不要去触碰他比较好
免得记忆的味道
坏了

满怀期待的一天
终于在那天
幻灭

顿然发现 是我自己的一厢情愿
其实原来 一切都已经人事已非

原来一直只有我 原地踏步
我的他们都已经 各走各路


决定不再

Kidsfest + Kids Album Recording!!

081008


I was blown away by the stage design!! They have a little runway and with BIG HUGE LCD screen!! How cool is that ek! Talking about big budget here =="


Taken from far during rehearsal.


Trying to take a picture of myself with the stage..
But the back light is too bright that i barely see myself!


KIDSFEST!!! ALBUM RECORDING!!!
It was awesome. Can't believe I'm part for it....


...as camera 5 assistant - where nothing really much to do =P
The guy behind me is the camera operator.


Camera operating at the hub.
It's a good chance for me practice on camera work and stuff.


*******


Time flies, about a month and a half and college will be done.
What's next?
To work my a** off to get as much as I can probably.
Going to pick up Lili cleaning job on every Monday and hopefully can get a higher pay job so that not only to cover my expenses but also the loan that to be returned.
I believe God is my provider and I'm just going to trust Him.



Will be going to Tassie with Renee this coming Friday and back by Monday for Stuat engagement party.
I'm exciting about going back to the good old Tassie and get to meet some old pals.
The van Steenis is just like my another family.
Salamanca Market, Mt. Willington, Scallop Pies, Little Italy...
so many good old memory!!
Ah~~ Can't wait!!


*******


PS:
And something very strange -
Renee keep meeting people that I know / meet in the City church!
Funny ah~

The OZ

Firstly, they celebrate Christmas in July.
Then, they have their father day on the 1st week of September instead of 1st week of June.
And now, they have their labor day on 6th Oct instead of 1st May.

Nevertheless
Spring in September to November
Summer in December to February
Autumn in March to May
Winter in June to August

They have their Christmas spend at beaches in bikini and Santa hat.
They bear their feet walking on street whenever they feel like it.
They have their BBQ in the afternoon.
They.......

.... Oppsie, my 30mins break is over
and I shall finish my last line with....


What's more OZ?!!
Bring it on!

Process

I'm learning



to be patience
to see things more positive
to appreciate
to value others
to love
to joy in any circumstances
to smile when there's no reason to
to trust my future will be brighter
to stop worrying
to not anxious
to be strong and bold
to be still


I'm still

under construction

*****


有时觉得还是用中文比较好表达呢

Finally

Life here is very very very very the busy... Believe me (at least try to..ok? Haha)
And now allow me to update you what had happening for the last few weeks..Ok..We are talking about MONTH here ^^"

• It's 2nd month of the Spring now. Today is 34 Celsius - almost same as in Malaysia..Deng it!! Well, the weather here is pretty much unpredictable..Tomorrow it down to 25 Celsius and predicted to have thunderstorm. I bought myself a red umbrella for my way to College - I just can't take it to walk under the sun for 30mins. And those ang-mo look at me like one kind - they can't wait to get tanned and they will never understand I have had too much sun for almost 27yrs in my life!

• Last Monday we had a location shoot for a Kid Album MV on a beach and I got my arms tanned (you can't use umbrella on the beach, right?). It 's also my first time to the beach since I got here. The water is super clear and I love the fact that the sincery here is hold ur breath. Anyway the shoot was fun, and lotsa hard work too - like walking on the sands =P

• There will have Kid Fest coming up next week. Will record some of Kid Album at the same time I reckon. And I'm on crew!! Can't wait.... as long as they don't put me on Camera 1 assistant again >.<>

• The video editing class is finished and now we have Monday off..Yeah..But it seems like I never had anyway T___T too many thing to be done. There's heaps of never ending assessment due almost every week so I'll have my week quite packed. Anyways, suppose to start doing my assessment but end up blogging.. hehehe..
  

• I now work in a Jap restaurant every Friday and Saturday, 18hour a week . Quite an experience since I never really do waitressing before. Anyway, thank God for the job that I able to pay my rent.

• As to feed everyone interest - Yes, Leong Kam Kam is here. He has got a job in optical shop the first week he got here.. with kinda good pay also. Blessed!!! We hang out twice a week since I have class during weekdays and he is in the he live in the city and I am up the Hills (FYI, Hills is away from city 30mins drive, 1.5hour by public transport). He live in backpacker apparently and having fun sharing room with 20+ppl in a room (No worries, it's a BIG room!! I didn't torture nor bully him >.<)

• I'll visiting Tassie again on the 17th this month for Stuart engagement party and will be back on 20th. Going to meet the old friends and most importantly able to visit the place that always has my heart on. So excited!!!!!!! Baahahaha!!!

• We'll have Day Light Saving starts this Saturday. Meaning from Saturday onwards, we are 3 hours ahead of Malaysia instead of 2 hours..which also means LESS one hour sleep!!!!! Huhuhuhuhu T____T Who come up with those thing one har....!@#$%^&*()
  

Ok la, I think that's all.
Should really go back to my assessment. Need to finish 3 before I leaving to Tassie coz they due on 13th, 17th and 20th T____T Wish me luck!

And lastly, post a beach picture give u jealous jealous me.. wahahahahahahaaaaa!!!

Ciao my friends

Last day of Winter!!!

Yeah!!!!!! Winter is comes to an end!!
Expecting warm and nice weather tomorrow onwards :)
Again, I was busy with college and assessment.
But I really enjoy the life here - busy but fruitful.



1. College
I got the chance to do the Camera 5 for the on yesterday night service!!
I was nervous but thank God that we went through the lesson on how to handle the camera last Monday (pheeeew!)
It turned out quite good where I managed to give the shots of what director wants.
It was really fun after all.


2. Malaysian Festival turn DOULOS
Today I went to the city for a Malaysian Festival with friends and I expecting to get some Malaysian food like nasi lemak ah, roti canai ah, teh tarik ah.. cincai lah whatever I can get!!
However.... :(
We didn't managed to get there (bcos of... you-know-what-reason >.<) but went to this DOULOS - a library on a ship! Well, the ship itself is pretty impressive. Was wanted to visit when I still in Malaysia but never get the chance. Now I did not plan but went eventually without knowing it.
I was sooooooooooooo hungry cos I just ate 5 little piece of cookies before I took off
(Cos I was expecting to eat in the festival T___T)
And what I remember is walk walk walk walk walk walk walk walk walk walk walk =="
Then we have to be back for church before 630.
Everything is so rush.
We walk really fast and I think I'm really getting into it :P
Anyway, we were late.
We missed the P&W but thanks God we didn't miss the LIVE part.
It was so so good.. so so so so good!!!


3. Pray for the Nation with NLRC Youth
It was great pleasure to have the chance to pray with the youths back home.
What an experience - we are getting high-tech-ed!! Haha
Guys, just want you all to know that I really miss you all here.
And I'm so proud of each and everyone of you :)
Be bold be strong and live life loud!!
Love you all so much!


4. Goodbye my beloved Ex-colleagues
Last Friday was the last day for Lee Pheng & I-Lin in EM
I'm sure Michelle will miss us (yes, is US) so much!! hehe
We used to have so much fun... aiks... miss them lah >.<
Who's going to sing (shout) Mayday with me in the Karaoke??!
Who can I practice my bombastic-skill in the future??!
They have being such a blessing in my life.
Anyway, EM is now officially rules by the LEE "family".. haha

*******


God is doing great thing here.
I'm glad that I have the chance to be part of it.
Can't stop thanking Him for what He has for me.

It's officially Spring tomorrow - Finally!!
Spring = flowers!!!!!
Can't wait ^^

PS: I'm trying to get a job here
has been giving out resume
Do remember me in your prayer hey :)

Last but not least
It's FATHER'S DAY next weekend
=="
I know what you are thinking right now
...same here...

(this poster is on the toilet door...seems like "he" is looking at you when u wee-wee ==")
LOL

What do I do here

It is such a long time I didn't blog..
I just got very busy with study and assessment
(oh yea, I'm good girl..shsh)

Just thought that I should have update you guys with what's happening out here..
.with pictures!!!
(cos that would save heaps of words!)


- Control Room -
Not very big but efficient enough.
Pretty much like the Studio 2 at NTV7.


- Production Desk -
There's another desk that the producer would have control
over the things like....
what a producer would do =="


- CCU (Camera Control Unit) -
I've been told we will get our hands on the machines.
But, I didn't expect that they will just throw me on right away =="
This was me doing the CCU for second time.
The first time is just horrible >.<
course I barely understand what the heck is that and what is it for.


- Multi Camera Editing -
Another most frustrated thing I've ever done - editing with Final Cut Pro >.<
We are learning how to edit on multicam.
Thank God the teacher is an expert on this,
just that he teaching a little too fast @@


- Chroma Key Church News Editing -
Learning how to use chroma key.
It was... fun...
(except for the fact that information-overloading)

Today, they allocated me to be the cameraman >.<
Another disaster T___T
I was suppose to take the shots of the speaker, meaning I have to follow his leading.
Being a first timer, I've no idea how the "camera-momentum" would like
The camera is so stiff, that I barely move it smoothly!!!
(or my hands are just kinda "malfunction")
What I heard is "head room! head room!"
And if you look on the screen, my lead is just bumpy here and there.
However, the director is kind enough to say
"Cam 2, you are doing great job!"
..where I know I'm not >.<
It has been very encouraging though
Oh~ I love bible school ^^


- Course mates -
Me, Esther (Korean), Julian (South African) & Chad (American)
They are just a bunch of nicest + funniest people!!
Know the song "Amazing Grace"?
Yea..one of them (not in the picture) nicknamed me by modified the song to
"Malaysian Grace"
=="
I love them.


- Birthday Party @ home -
Yesterday was my housemate birthday
and we throw her a party


- Nacho with Avocado -
This is the first time I fell in love with Avocado
They are perfectly match!!!!!


- Birthday Cake + Ice Cream + Wipe Cream = Heaven -


My roommate, Mary, baked the cake
Yummy yum yum
She is from American and she's awesome!
We start to have this prayer time before we sleep
And it was really nice that she brought up that idea
It trains me up in how to pray in English where I never did before

******

Okay
I think I should go now too
Or else you would be ended up like me
- information overloaded -
LOL

Btw, I miss Malaysia.....FOOD!!